Good Things and Frustrations

I am grateful for so many things, - lovely house, furniture, awesome family, great friends, health, current opportunities plus much much more! :-)

But I'm so impatient!  I want everything now!  I work so hard, undo it all, over and over before achieving what I know I'm capable of!

I submitted the last part of my study, enjoyable but I need to get MUCH better at time management!  I have a small business idea I want to give a good shot in the um, next 20 if not 10 or 5 years!  The thought of work where I enjoy the challenge and believe in what I'm doing = bliss!!!  But how to get started, seems so far removed from my position now!

I really want to travel more, - undertaking various experiences overseas.  Still a bike ride of a week through The Big Island, Hawaii, - a trip to Canada, (bliss) hopefully a bikeride/hike around the rockies amongst it!  Have not been to Europe, would like to go and I have a few things I'd luv to do there.  Not to mention a hike in Nepal, - am really keen to experience that at some point!  Of course some relaxing amongst such trips too!  The desire to travel has that *urgency* feel to it right now!

I am loving my nephew so much when I get to see him, he is now 5 and a half weeks old already, has started smiling, he is getting stronger, he is beaut!

Thing is with me: - I have all these things I want to do, - travel, - study, change of work, work toward starting business.  HOWEVER, - I will be 33 in July and I don't want to write the idea off completely of finding a man, having an awesome relationship, getting married and having a kid.

In saying that, - I have a very full busy life right now, struggle to look after myself, I love sporting events, and would be still be very content if I never had an awesome man or had kids.

However IF the man/kids thing was ever to happen I would love to be/have maintained lifestyle habits I'm proud of, be happy with my fitness level/body composition, I would want to have crossed more off my 'to do' travel list and I would want my work situation to be different!  I am not the type who wants to marry a guy with money, me do nothing, him do all for me, - I like the 50/50 type split style better and working as a team!  There are no men on the horizon at all, that appeal/are available and I don't have time right now haha!

Right now I know I need to stop thinking of the big lofty dreams/goals of the future, controlling the controllables, and take it day by day, cross off little achievements......and keep that going!

As for my current job, - incase you are wondering, it is sorting out tulip bulbs which come past me on a conveyor belt, - where I pick out the the ones not up to quality, - 8 plus hours of that daily! 2 months ago I was peeling these same bulbs as they came past on a conveyor belt. Think it may rise to 10 hour days this week.  (Feel my enthusiasm other than money!!!)  Lovely people to work with, I get on with everyone great, - seriously though!  There are qualified, technical and mechanically minded people who do the more challenging jobs at my workplace.   I do need to stay focussed on the job, keep my eyes open despite constant yawning and make sure my hands and eyes stay working fast enough!  I am lucky to be working!

Am starting Crossfit this week, (new, exciting, scary, am concerned how bad I may be), have no assessments lingering this week, - instead just want to revise what I've submitted and learned.  I aim to report back with better outcomes regarding my lifestyle doings at the end of the week, 1 day at a time though!

Pip :-)